As cliche as it may be to write a blog for my mom on Mother's Day... well it is cliche so I waited a day after to write this. I have been contemplating whether or not to put my mom's encouraging note to me up. Often it is my struggle with personal pride that keeps me from writing most things on my blog, and re-writing a personal encouraging note about me makes me uneasy. But ultimately this is about my mom so I am going to try and keep it that way.
Shortly after my graduation from high school my youth group held a banquet for all the Seniors. This is the beginning of my mom's encouraging note to me....
" 'Sweet'.... the adjective I frequently used to describe you when you were young. Your demeanor hasn't changed, but I get that 'sweet' isn't exactly the word a soon-to-be-freshman in college wants to have ascribed to him! As I was reflecting upon what I wanted to say to you tonight, Jonathan, I felt an overwhelming thankfulness for the years we have had the privilege of sharing with you so far."
As her note went on she highlighted good qualities she saw in me and things God has blessed me with. I remember reading this note whenever I got discouraged last year as I had a little bit of a rough time my first semester adjusting to freshman year.
Mom I know it makes you sad when I say I struggled or had a hard time and didn't talk to you about it when it was happening, because you always want to be there to comfort me. The honest truth is that your words are so comforting and this note has meant so much to me over the last two years. I want to share what I wrote on the back of this encouraging note last winter...
"Thanks Mom,
I have never been able to show love to you like you have to me. When people talk about their moms [and the arguments and fights they get in with them] I feel like you are perfect. Many times you have taken my harsh comebacks or rude statements and never have you tried to retaliate. I wish I was humble enough [and grounded in the Lord enough] to do that. You and Dad have always been there for me, although I didn't always take advantage of that simply knowing that you were there for me helped support me. Especially when I was too chicken to be vulnerable with you guys. (I start to go on sort of a tangent here, remember it is my immature freshman self) The reason there are so many problems in the world has a lot to do with parents. It is apparent to me that a lot of people who lash out at the world are the ones who have/ had poor adult figures in their lives. You have blessed me in so many ways with how great of parents you and dad are.... I love you!"
There are so many amazing qualities about my mom, that's why before I cared about being cool I was the biggest mommas boy ever! If you are up around 6:30-7:30am (depending on the day) in the Goff household you can be confident that Mary Goff is spending time with God on the leather recliner in the living room, my mom is so faithful. She spends her day teaching children who learn differently than most kids and has such a passion for them. My parents just recently stepped down from Young Life Committee as they no longer have kids in high school. They wanted to let someone who was more involved in the area step up. We used to have campaigners (Young Life Bible study) and other events at my house constantly. My mom has sacrificed so much sleep from letting my friends stay over longer, have bonfires, night adventures and Goff basement deep-talk/ epic story time. Not to mention that she still does as our basement is very poorly sound-proofed and she can hear whenever I have friends back from college to catch-up. My mom being a light sleeper could have easily sent my friends home early but barely ever did she even bring up that I was loud unless I asked the next day. When I think about how Paul tells us to be selfless every time the first person I think about is my mom... "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others" (Philippians 2:3-4). She is the best example I have ever seen of someone valuing others above herself and being concerned about the interest and well being of my family over herself.
Mom I want to thank you for encouraging me throughout my baseball career as I always felt like I had you and Dad's 100% support especially when it got difficult. Same with the trips and time you have let me go on at the cost of spending time with you, in order to spend it with buds that I felt called to reach out to or grow deeper with. Your love has been only second to God's in how it has shaped how I know to interact and treat others. Your love has made me want to bless my friends and WyldLife kids anyway I can. I wouldn't ask for you and dad to have been any other way. In fact I like when things are clean and when Steven isn't playing video games. This hasn't even scratched the surface on what you have been to me but thank you.
Here is the last paragraph of your note to me.....
"I am grateful to have had the opportunity to be your mom, Jonathan. My job isn't finished, but my role is changing. I am going to greatly miss all the action you bring to our house, but I'm excited for you, as you look to the future. I am confident that, as you make yourself available, God is going to continue to grow you into a remarkable man.
Mom
SHYG Senior Banquet
6/8/09"
I am incredibly blessed to call you my mom, I promise I will bring some action this summer! Hopefully someday I can be a remarkable man but I will always be a child of God.
Love you,
Jonathan